Sunday, July 15, 2012

Rant #1 (Because I have a feeling this won't be the last)

Venting time. This shit won’t be funny. At least I don’t think so. So I apologize for that. I was watching extreme home makeover (okay that might be a little funny) and besides being incredibly annoyed by Ty Pennington I was crazy touched by the family and their autistic kids. Yeah yeah. Make fun of me. I got emotionally involved. They were talking about how people have a hard time relating to their kids and all they want is their kids to be happy. Nothing can make me moved to tears and annoyed at the same time like that show. Oh yeah Love monster can. And out spewed this rant. Enjoy. :)
It’s hard. It’s hard to see people not want Love Monster to be around them. I see them get annoyed with her. I see them get frustrated. I see them prefer her sister, Smirker. because she’s easier and smaller with that teeny cuteness factor. I see people dismiss Love Monster. I see other kids make fun of her and it breaks my heart. It makes me sad. It makes me mad. At them. At me. At her. 
“If you would just not hang all over people and be so loud maybe people would like you!” I scream in my head.
They don’t see the lovely little girl who just wants to show them love. They see an annoying little person who doesn’t know her own strength. She's not that.
I want people to see all the wonderful things I see. I want them to know she does have trouble controlling her impulses and it’s not just average kid stubbornness. It’s beyond her control at this point, but we’re working on it and it’s getting better. I want them to recognize that and recognize how great she is.
People who don’t really know her have called her a bully, after seeing her for two seconds and in a bad moment. But in reality she bullies people with happiness. She wants to be loved so badly and she doesn’t mask her feelings in the least.
I want her to have friends. I don’t want her classmates to yell “Love Monster Alert! Love Monster alert!“ when she comes near them. (You have no idea how pissed I am at that asshole kid. But I also know he’s just a kid and needs tolerance too so don’t get your panties in a twist). To see that happen at school and to see Love Monster deal with it like it’s no big deal tears my heart in two. Because I know her. She’s a smart, intuitive kid. She knows they are being mean. But she doesn’t let it break her. 
To have other parent teachers tell other kids “That was so nice you played with Love Monster today.” Makes me irrationally angry. The kid is crazy fun! Her dress up scenarios rival any movie plot I’ve seen. The possibilities she sees when she finds a piece of raw material astounds me. 
Ex. Left over strawberry basket equals sponge bob figurine and tiny coffee stirrer and spork equal a unicorn. 

Behold the spork-icorn:

She is a dedicated artist. And her heart is so big it makes me boil with rage to see anyone push her away. Which they do. Without subtly. She loves with no boundaries and no reservation. Which makes people uncomfortable and yeah she needs those boundaries I know. I’m on that. But I'd rather her be like that then have her feeling locked up inside.

And I’m sorry, but you have not earned the right to yell at Love Monster or get annoyed at her behavior if you’ve spent a few minutes with her. I spend my life with her. I am allowed to get pissed every now and then (behind the bathroom door of course).
So I ask you. Next time you’re around a crazy, over enthusiastic kid that annoys the crap out of you, take a second before you push that kid away or write them off. Remember that they just want to be loved. And they have parent that wants everyone to see how great they are. Please be tolerate. But of course if the kids starts lighting shit on fire or something feel free to stop letting them explore the possibilities.
And yes I realize it’s ironic that Ty Pennington annoys the crap out of me. Seeing that he is ADHD (Though she has not been diagnosed she "presents symptoms") and he would totally relate to Love Monster. They would be besties. So I take it back. Ty is not annoying with that freaking mega phone. He is just... very enthusiastic. But there is no way in hell I’d ever allow Love Monster near one of those things. Seriously who thought that was good idea.
There I feel better now. Don’t mess with Mama bear.